Monday Rocks!

Hey peeps! How's Monday treating you, so far?? Monday's are not my favorite(are they anybodys?), but weather I like them or not, they keep showing up every week(buggers). But this Monday, I decided to do something fun...I am going to join in with Megan over at Mackey Madness...who is like, adorable. I don't know her & I even just recently started reading her blog, but it was kinda bloggy love at first sight for me, she just rocks!! Annnnyways, it time for


Okay. So I am to pick a blog that I love & give it a proper shout out, something like" HEY! YOUR BLOG ROCKS!" Well of course it is tough to pick just one so I'm not, I'm picking 2 ...no, make that 3 because Megan at Mackey Madness

 I think your blog ROCKS!!

I love the lil blonde chickee at TexaGermaNadian.

 She is hilarious. Seriously. I always, always look forward to reading her posts & she never lets me down. She is a texas girl married to a Canadian(woot!) hockey player & is currently living in Germany where her hubby's contract is. I can't do her justice...u really need to go check her out, for yourself. Besides being funny, & having great taste in men( he's canadian, c'mon!) she is also quite talented with the technical side of the blog world too...she just had a button & header giveaway. Maybe if you bug her enough ask her nicely, she'll have another giveaway, or something! Texa girl,  your blog ROCKS!

Okay, if u love love, then u need to meet Katie at Love with Katie


She really & truly shows that Love is everywhere. She features love stories daily. Some of the most beautiful love stories. I have enjoyed reading every.single.one. She is just one of those beautiful soul's, ya know. She is the first one to leave people warm, heartfelt comments on any kind of blog post. Amazing, right?! She is just about to begin a 29 day journey of giving. So if you haven't following her so far, then now's the time my friends. Plus this girl can ROCK a circle scarf(&her blog)!!

Yay!! This really did make my Monday seem less like a Monday. What's better then writing about blogs you love to read! Me thinks, this is a great idea Megan!! I hope did it right!?!

Summer juices

Happy Sunday, gorgeous!!! It is the perfect day to just hang in at home....

backyard

On Thursday it was +13...my boys were in hoodies & rubber boots playing in the back yard. Today we needs LAYERS to even attempt to shovel our driveway. Ooooo well, January is almost ova, & I know this snow will melt & that the sweet smell of spring is just around the corner. Seriously, I can not wait for my first whiff of these beauties....

Sigh. Even looking at them in a picture gets my summer juices pumping(lol! that almost sounds dirty...hehe). Like always, I have been getting thru the winter by planning our summer. We are certainly hoping to get into BC this year to do some serious camping....

And this summer I'm on misson to find some decent swimming in this crazy landlocked province. It hurts my soul that my boys love the water(as much as their momma does) and there really isn't that many places to take them other then here....

Yup, its a giant man-made puddle!

Actually, my boys really enjoy going here. I find it kinda gross, but whatever. They love it, & when it's hot in the city we always take it:) Just so odd to me that this is what my kids consider the beach. When I was Z's age I was taking my swimming lessons here....

I'm hoping to get back to PEI this summer. All 4 of us, this time(last summer, just Z & I went). But we have to wait & see how the funds work out. A family of 4, to fly during summer, is about $2,000... which is crazy really....I mean we don't even leave the country, how can it possibly be that expensive. But it is. So ya know, I'm just dreaming for now:)

Soooo, I'm going to spend my snowy day at FTLOB because it is

and I loooooove comment love day!! They always have the best blogs to read thru. Actually, FTLOB has a TON of awesome, new exciting things happening over there. Honestly, If u haven't checked them, u should. Those ladies put so much effort into their site & it's a booming success!! They are dedicated to helping bloggers out. How amazing it that?!

Until next time......xoxo

Sliding doors

Happy friday, peeps!! I'm not looking after any kiddo's today(woot woot!! first day all month!!), so the boys & I are packin up & heading  for a playdate!!We are all pumped up.... Z & Wy haven't seen there bestie, Ki, in like 2 months. And Ki's mom is one of my besties!! I can hardly contain my excitement at the thought of drinking coffee & getting caught up with her. Delight.

I don't have a ton of girlfriends that I can really, really talk to. I actually only have 3(up until a couple of years ago, I only had 1!!). Secretly, I always craved a big group of girlfriends...but, I could not be more grateful for the 3 that I do have. Back home, a group of girlfriends that I use to hang around with, when I lived there, are all very close still. They get together once a month & just drink, talk, laugh, cry. I have these intense sliding door moments(please tell me u have all seen this movie), where I wonder if I still lived there, if I didn't get on the train(okay, if u have never seen the movie, that will make no sense. sorry), how different my life would be. It's crazy, really. How, looking back, I see that I really was at a crossroads & how I jumped on one path & this amazing life that I have, is the outcome. Of course I have my moments, when I think of just how different my life could have been if I never did get on the train(movie, again). Not that I think it would be any better or any worse then my life is now, but just different. Crazy. Honestly, if I could go back I would do it again. I would get on the train(lol), absooooolutely!!

 Friday also means it's.....

 Over at FLOB. Seriously, it's one of my favorite hops! I mean it is dedicated to leaving bloggy love, who couldn't love that?!

Also, Shalyn over at Laugh until your Cheeks Hurt did this super, super cute vlog. I'm thinking of doing it to, but I kinda like being able to hide behind my blog. But, this year is dedicated to pushing my comfort zones, so u never know.

Okay friends, have a happy, happy friday & take a lil time to enjoy the view(lol!lol! Remember when Barbara Walters always use to say that? Lame.)xoxo

bomb diggity

Since getting our new camera at Christmas, I have been goofing around with it, alot. Tonight I put all the pictures on the computer, to have a little look-see at my amazing(yeah right!!!!),work. Of course I have hundreds of pictures of the boys. Hundreds of really cute ones... and thousands of them not looking at the camera!! But, when looking thru the rest of my pictures I realize that they kinda make me look materialistic.... A lot of my picutres are of the silly lil things that make me smile. Thought I would share a few with u guys:)

My slipper boots. They are lame, so lame. But they make me happy, damnit. So leave me alone:)!! Lol

Mmmm, coffee n candles. I'm not really sure if I could make it through my morning without my cup of joe. And that candle is chocolate scented... makes a tiny spot  my whole house
smell like chocolate, yo. Yea, I'm cool like that...

Some woman say that can't be seen without their bras...or without their lipstick on...me? I can not be seen without my concealer. What can I say, I wear glasses & I'm tired alllll the time. Concealer is my friend. Before I was a momma I would only use Benefit eye concealer, but it is super pricey. I literally searched for months to find a store brand one that did the trick. Took me awhile, but I love me my covergirl invisable & it's less then 10 bucks!!

This stuff here is the bomb diggity (oh yes I did)...Seriously, I put it on before bed every night & my lips are always kissable, cuz ya know, a girls gotta be ready;) Also under 10 bucks!! Score.

yeeks! Sorry about the flash!

These are sea salt & balsamic vinegar chips. My faaaaavorite. Right now, at this very moment, I'm telling my self to put them back in the cupboard. To just put. them. away. from. me!!xo

bathroom floor

The other day I was on a blog hop. I found myself reading a beautiful woman's painful post of living her life as a mother, without her mother. The post began with how the woman's daughter told her at the breakfast table that she was being bullied at school. She wrote about the anxiety this gave her & how an hour after her daughter left for school she found herself on the bathroom floor, sobbing. She wrote that the reason for her sobs were not for her daughter, but for herself. She wrote how she  longed for her mother, who had passed not that long ago(I believe), more then anything she wished she could call her mother on the phone for advice on her daughters bullying problem. She could not. This is what caused her to be on bathroom floor full of grief, sobbing. I so wish I could remember who's post this was. I want to give her credit so bad. It was beautiful, honest & heart breaking. I totally understood. I totally related. Except, my mother is living. Just a phone call away. Except not.

Let me explain...*this is huge for me. I have only ever talked about this with my husband & 2 of my girlfriends. My whole family is Irish, & the Irish, they don't talk about nothin*...My mother & I, we don't have the typical mother/daughter relationship. In fact, I have barely any memories of my mom & I one on one. We never had mommy daughter dates, or spent quiet afternoons alone at home together just hanging out. I lived with  my mother. I lived with both my parents, yet I wasn't really allowed to live there, confused yet?? My mother has OCD. The more serious kind. She was/is a clean freak obsessed & a control freak. She controlled me. Or at least she tried.  I was not the easy going, sure u can control me kind of daughter(is anybody?!). I fought her every step of the way. I caused her alot stress & her me. But the biggest loss in it (for me) is that I didn't have a proper role model. She knew how to love me. She did & does love me. She just didn't know how to make me fit into what she needed on daily bases to just get thru her day. Holy shit, does that even make sense?! Sorry. This is way harder then I expected....

I wanted her to love me so badly. I couldn't understand what was wrong with her. No one even tried to help me understand. Everyone just denied. All I want was to bake cookies with her & talk to her, like really talk. I have often thought that if  I had that type of relationship with her, in which we could communicate with each other,  then I may not have the anxiety issues that I have now. But that's not that way it was. And that's okay. I understand more know. The anger is gone. Which is good. I know she loved me & did the best she could. We have a a very "unique" relationship. We are friends. We can talk about the light stuff for days. I tell her about the my boys. But only the good stories. I'm careful not to stress her out, now. She makes me laugh. So funny. I have learned how to really hold onto the good times with her. When we do connect,  it's powerful because I don't take those moments for granted. Ever.  But still. I have those days. Those hard, stressful, lonely days. When u feel like no one could ever understand the difficulty in finding the balance in this life of mother & wife. Oh, I have found myself on that bathroom floor many times. Wishing. Hoping. Praying. Sometimes I brave a call. Sometimes it goes okay, & sometimes it's too much for her & she has to make excuse to get off the phone. So I cry. Then I pick myself back. I tell myself she is doing the best she can. Just like I am as a Mom. I breathe & try to surround myself with beautiful, strong women. I am so different then her. And for that I am grateful. And so is she(or so she has told me). Onward & forward. Right?!
xo

Happy happy Friday

I just won something. I have never won anything. Ever. Let me just tell u what I won. I won, the header giveaway at my FAVORITE blog spot FTLOB. This fantastic community was brought together by Vic, Ashley & Lindsay & they are absolutely freaking ahhhhmazing. I am sure talent oozes out of them, they are that good.  They have saved my lil bloggy life a few times already. My new Header will be from Courtney at One Fine Blog Design & I can not wait to have her beautiful work on my blog. Bahhhhhh, so excited!!!!

Okay. So I'm thinking that today I'm going to keep things light. I have a couple dark intense posts that I need to finish up, some letting-it-go stuff. As much as I am looking forward to reading my emotions in words instead of just feeling them all the time, it just doesn't really go with the mood I am in now. I mean, I just did a air fist pump. Ridiculous happy:) So, I'll give u a lil peek into my personal side. Here is 7 things I bet u didn't know about me....

- My hubby is a retired rock n roller. Haha. He never made it to the "big time" but he was pretty locally famous in his 20's. He is crazy talented when it comes to music. He can hear a song, pick up a guitar & play it. That's right people I was a band groupie for awhile. As much as touring sounds exciting, it really is a very odd reality. He still jams as much as he can, but there's no tours anymore. Just basement playing.

-I met Princess Diana when I was in grade 1. I loved her. I remember for years I had asked my mom if I could change my name to Diana, thinking that would make me a princess. Funny

-I have 2 tattoo's; a sun& moon on my back & a butterfly on my foot. I want more tats. So many more. The next one is going to be my boys names on the back of my neck. Can't wait for that.

-I'm obsessed with purple. It has been my favorite color forever. I try to have as much purple around me as possible, it just makes me so freakin happy. I kinda seek it out. Right now, my favorite is my new purple boots. I wear them everywhere, all the time. Love me my purple boots:). But my forever favorite would be my engagement ring. Love.

-I'm the easiest person to shop for. My husbands hates loathes shopping. When we were only dating a few months he asked me to give a revolving list of things I like. That way if he is ever stumped on my bday or Christmas,  he can go to the "list". My list includes candles, body cream, and candy. U can never go wrong if u get me one of those 3. Never.

-I'm a texting manic. I really probably text way to much. But as a working mom it is the best/fastest way for me to communicate with the outside world. When my phone is working, it gives me anxiety.

-I'm 100% Irish & u can tell. I once had a teacher write in my elementary report card that I was a very promising student but that unfortunately I must have kissed the balarny stone cuz I don't shut up(okay, so I'm sure she didn't say shut up, but that is what she meant)

So there u have it. Now, to pop over to Fab Friend Friday at FTLOB & check out some new fantabulous  blogs they posted. Happy Friday:)

sleepy & a sugar high

thanks to the hubs:)

So tired tonight. One of the lil guys I am looking after, has a 6:30am drop off time. Which means this mama is up @ 6. I'm not a morning person. So not a morning person. But whatcha gonna do, right?! I can rally... But first, I am going to enjoy a huge box of my favorite candy & check out American Idol. I'm excited to see my girl, J Lo. I like her as a singer/ performer but I LOVE her for her fashion style. I can't wait to see what is going to wear tonight. I'm a such a girl sometimes:) xo

Tasty Tuesday

I So wish I had my own picture of this DELISH dessert. But we all gobbled it up so fast, I didn't get a snapshot:( Seriously, this is SOoo yummy & so easy/quick to make. SCORE:)
Check out FTLOB Tasty Tuesday Hop, so many yummies!!!


1 pkg. (3.4 oz.) JELL-O Lemon Flavor Instant Pudding

1 cup  cold fat-free milk

1-1/2 cups whipping cream

30    Ginger Snaps

BEAT pudding mix and milk in medium bowl with whisk 2 min. Stir in  WHIP Cream.

SPREAD about 1-1/2 tsp. pudding mixture onto each cookie. Stack cookies, standing on edge on platter to make log. Frost with remaining pudding mixture.

REFRIGERATE 8 hours. Cut diagonally to serve.

Dessert needs to be refrigerated at least 8 hours before serving to allow the cookies to soften to the desired cake-like texture. If desired, dessert can be stored in refrigerator up to 24 hours before serving.

a new day

What a difference a day makes. Seriously. Last night I went to bed early. Feeling lonely & a lil sad. I woke up, reminded myself it's a new day, went downstairs & everything was different.... I have no idea if the hubs reads my blog or not. I know he steals a couple glances here & there while I'm writing, but I don't know if he actually "reads" it or not. He has full permission to, I told him that right from the beginning that he could read it, I just didn't necessarily want to know that he read it. Anyways, coffee was made (meaning I slept in...a half hour more people, I'll take it!), & the morning went fairly smoothly & was, dare I say, calm. Sweet.

Then I sign into blogger. Holy Hell. I'm featured on FTLOB, I mean could the timing not be any better! Wow!! I screamed a lil & then hysterically  tried to explain to D what being featured meant. Lol! I think he said "I'm happy you're excited babe". Love. I had some amazing comments of support. Tingles. And the ahhhhmazing Vic left me my very own comment. The most wonderful comment. She had me in tears. It was the kinda connection I've been hoping for!!

Then, this afternoon I had a 3 hour nap!! Score. I can not tell you what a difference it made for me. Rest. I needed me some rest. That nap allows me more time to dig into my "when I have a freakin second" basket....

 Let's see...October's Cosmo...You're Not the Boss of Me, How to Brat Proof Your Child(lol), a book from my momma n law...Wy's baby book...What is turning into my new Fave Jodi Picoult book "nineteen minutes"....yummy dessert  recipes...a whole lotta yarn(working on the white ball, making a scarf for a beautiful friend), & a huge bucket of cinnamon hearts, my fave!

So, not exactly a fun post, but happier, right?! I'm working on something a lil fun though, wait for it:) Happy night, & Happy Monday:)

***I just popped over to Kelle Hamptons blog & she has the most beautiful, video up....

Boo

It hasn't been a fun week. Nothing really "bad" happened or anything, I just find life tough sometimes. The everyday "normal" stresses get to me. I wish I didn't struggle so much with finding my balance in this crazy wife/mommy world that I live. I get tired. Sometimes, I just need a break. It makes me feel weak...i should be able to handle my role better, like all those beautifully, perfect mommy's I see walking into the gym. I should be more like them.  I don't know, I love my boys. I would do anything for them, but sometimes I just feel walked all over.

I haven't had a true break since Z was born. The only nights I have been away from him was when I was giving birth to his lil bro. Other then that, I have not been away from him for the night. I need a girls weekend. Or a weekend totally alone. I just need time with me, because sometimes I feel like I get a lil lost in the everyday shuffle that is just everyday life. Sigh. Woo, is me, right?!

My blog is getting my down too. It's weird, actually. On the one hand, I'm super proud of my lil blog. I started with 0 followers (& have told no one except D) & now I have 32!! You have no idea happy that makes me... that's where it gets confusing...how can I be so proud of something & yet feel so frustrated at the same time? It's not about followers or profile hits or anything like that. For me, it's about connecting with people. I just wish more people felt a connection with me & with my blog. Perhaps I need to open up more or maybe I need to add more pictures or maybe I need more of a theme.. All I do know is that I have ALOT to learn & I kinda feel like a sponge, just wanting to soak it all in. I have to say, I felt better after reading one of my daily blogs,  when a girl met a boy. Alot of her words reflected exactly how I have been feeling lately. I was surprised she was feeling this way, considering her blog is wicked awesome. I also read & re read Vic's comment, to her post, & pretend she was writing it to me. I love her. And I love triple love her blog, Freckles & Fudge.

I sooooo  hoping to win the blog makeover from Lindsay at  Scenic Glory(awesome giveaway from FTLOB). I didn't win. Boo. Happy for who did though!! I just would loooooooove to have my blog, look the way I imagine it to. Every time I click on Lindsay's blog, I can feel it. If that makes sense. I just think her work is beautifully perfect & calming. I need more calm in my life.

On top of everything(literally the icing on the cake),  I have gained 10 pounds. Not a huge deal, but I feel gross. I have been working out all week. Zumba fitness. It's super fun, I love it. I actually thought I might have lost a pound or two(or magically all 10), but today when I was putting my jeans on, I still had my muffin top. Boo, Zumba. Boo.

Yuck. Sorry for the downer post. It's just one of those weeks, I guess. I was hoping for a relaxing weekend & so far, no luck. I wanted to vent everything out tonight and  leave all my negative thoughts here. Tomorrow, I will post something fun. Promise:)

(almost)wordless wednesday

lil bowling feet

Cranberry Salsa.
 Z took this picture...

                                                

Wy's 1st time with a camera in his hands.
Trippy, right?!

Z's 1st time on skates. Didn't go so well. After numerous picture attempts, Z finally said
"just take one from down here mommy"!lol! Even though he struggled, such big smiles!!

Lovely

Ok so, I had met my two gf's for Sunday beers this past weekend. They both are kidless, one just got married & the other is getting married in March. I love these two girls to bits & pieces, but they have no clue how different our lives our. NO CLUE. So, on that note, I am going to vent. I am gonna freaking vent, because no one has clue how difficult my life can be at times....I choose to laugh instead of cry. Right?!

The first thing happens at 10am. Wyatt mysteriously falls off his chair while eating breakfast. Like wtf?! these boys continually smash their heads together, fall down stairs, run & crash(worst.game.ever) & now he is gurgling blood while sitting down. Really?! He does indeed put a tooth thru his lip(not the whole way thru, but way to damn close for my liking) & his lips bleeds like a facuet for about an hour. During this hour all I want to do is hold my baby & cry with him. But I ice, kiss, wipe his bloody lip instead & whisper that all is ok & that i love him soooo much. My poor lil man.

An hour later, D wants to run to Home Depot to grab some storage containers...."can I have my bankcard, babe?" Oh shit. I can't find his bankcard anywhere. Not in my purse, my jacket or my pants pockets. Great. Spend an hour looking. No bankcard(on a sidenote...I was using D's bankcard because, I, um....*cough*lost mine a couple months ago). An hour searching this house & no bankcard. Now what am I going to do....I place a call my girls who laughs hysterically at me & tell me not to worry to just get my ass there.

Okay. Shower. Dress. Makeup. All I need to do is grab my brand new sweater. Wait. Where the F is my sweater??? Search my closet, spare room closet & the clothes hamper. Sweater is mia. So I ask "babe, have u seen my new black sweater" he answers "mmmmm, no". Shit. I hear the dryer running. Wait. He never does laundry. Ever. I ask "babe, did u put my new sweater in the dryer?" he answers"mmmm, no donthinkso". I look. Yup, there it is. Rolling around my dryer. Stupid sweater. U are not allowed in dryer. I rescue it. Ruined. Too late. Like wtf he never does laundry!!Okay, now this changes my whole outfit. Lovely.

Let the car warm up. Crap. I need gas. Scrounge together my change & come up with enough loonies & toonies to get to the pub & back home. Just like my college days. Lovely.

Roads are terrible. Snow, ice, brutal. I hate driving in these kind of conditions. But I needed those girls & that beer so bad. I stuck it out. Pulled a 360 coming off an exit ramp. Kept going. I am superwoman. Roar.

Get there. Relax. Talk. Eat. Laugh. Make plans to get together in 3 weeks. Once inside the freezing car, I scrap my cute, not so warm, gloves for my big puffy red olympic mitts. Inside, D's bankcard. The one place we didn't look. Worst part, as found it, I remember putting it there. Lovely:)

landlocked

I grew up on farm. I grew up on a Island, surrounded by the ocean. I grew up where everyone knows everyone, & the most trouble that usually happens is at the local hockey rink. Seeing as that is where every teenager hangs out on on Friday night, as there is nothing. else. to. do. The total population is 141,000. That's it. The whole entire province. It's one of the most beautiful places in Canada. People travel from all over the world to come see where Anne with an e, lived. The East Coast vibe is the best damn vibe around, just ask any maritimer & they will agree. PEI, is probably one of the best places in the country to raise a family. And yet, here I am, trapped in a city. I want to go home....

But. This is where the money is. In this landlocked province. Damnit. I don't know what we were thinking. Well, not true, I do what we were thinking. Money. That is why we moved here. Our jobs. We could never make as good an income back home as we do here. Silly. Really, to think money was more important. I don't like my city. I have tried. Honest. I do see the beauty here. The mountains. There is no doubt that beauty lives here. I figure I must have salt water running thru my veins. I would give up the mountains in a second, to be by my ocean again. There is over a million people in my city. Over a freakin million! It takes at least 2 hours to get a typical errand done. The city is  very spread out. My sister n law lives in the SW part of the city & we live in NE part. Opposite ends. It takes almost 45 minutes to an hour to get to her place, not in rush hour. In rush hour, well I don't even know. We wouldn't dare try. At least 2 hours. Stuck, in traffic. It really sucks.

sunshine mountain. Z@ 3 weeks. Poppa @56 years

I use to think of myself as city girl stuck in the country. Now, I am a country girl stuck in a city. I can't win. I have so much worry raising my boys here. D(who is a farm boy) & I really have no idea how to raise city kids. When do you let your kids start riding there bike on their own?? What age can they walk home from school by themselves?? How do you keep your teenagers in school all day when their school is in the same parking lot as a mall?? We are in way over our heads. We know it. We both grasp on to our city friends. Bombarding them with questions. They usually smile at us. A little pathetic like. I'm sure they consider us deprived in some way. But I'm okay with that. I usually just smile back. A little pathetic like, cuz they don't know what they are missing. How laid back life can be. Or maybe they do, they just consider it a form of vacation, instead of everyday life.

So, I don't know. This is where we are. Working our butts off, to save our money to take our boys back home as often as possible. There are advantages for sure; my boys get the best of both worlds. I mean, they get the mountains & the ocean. You can only pull that one off in this country if you live in Vancouver. They take both skiing & swimming lessons. They know the west coast & the east coast & they are still just toddlers. Z was at the top of a mountain when he was 3 weeks old. We went with my dad. He was 56 & it was his first time at the top of a mountain. I might not enjoy the city. But I will exhaust myself exploring it for my boys. And secretly, I can't wait to buy them lil cowboy boots. I mean we live here, so we have to Stampede, right?!

Thirsty Thursday

Yum! Baileys!!! 

Straight up on flower petal ice cubes!! With a side of Wy's feet:) Lol!!

Happy Thursday:)

Happy dance

Okay, I am seriously doing my happy dance!! Bloggy award!! Woot woot!!! Dawn & Raphael over at Just Married with Coupons so deserved to receive this award!! Their site is wicked & full of great stuff & awesome give aways!! I can't even believe these extremely taltented peeps noticed me over here in my little corner, but let me tell ya, I'm hella honured that they did!! 

 They officially made me the happiest blogger, in all of bloggyland!! Thank u:)

OK So,

Here are the things you have to do when you receive this award:

1. First, thank and link back to the person that gave the award.
2. Answer the 10 survey questions.
3. Pass the award along to 5 - 10 other bloggers whom you think are fantastic.
4. Contact the bloggers you have chosen to let them know about the award.

1. If you blog anonymously, are you happy doing this? If you aren't anonymous, do you wish you started out anonymously, so that you could be anonymous now?
I am not anonymous, but I did consider it for 5 seconds at the very beginning. I'm happy that I didn't, but I do just use my boys first initial.

2. Describe an incident that shows your inner stubborn side.
Just one incident?? Sigh. Yes, I am stubborn. 100% Irish, can't help it:)

3. What do you see when you really look at yourself in the mirror?

I see me. The same person I have always seen, just wiser, smarter, more bitter & much much more tired.

4. What is your favorite summer cold drink?

Pink Lemonaide

5. When you take time for yourself, what do you do?
Funny. The only time I really get to myself is when I do my late evening errands to the grocery store, or the drug store, it doesn't matter where.  It's the fact that I am alone & I can listen to my music nice & loud in the car
6. Is there something that you still want to accomplish in your life? 

Oooo, YES!!!! There is plenty:)

7. When you attended school, were you the class clown, the class overachiever, the shy person, or always ditching?
I wasn't really any of these. In highschool I was just kinda there. Post-secondary I had to work pretty hard...

8. If you close your eyes and want to visualize a very poignant moment in your life, what would you see?
I have had many of these moments. The biggest was both times I found out I was pregnant.

9. Is it easy for you to share your true self in your blog, or are you more comfortable writing posts about other people and events?
I'm getting there when it come to myself. I would like to & hope to share much more. I am the most comfortable writing about my boys.

10. If you had the choice to sit down and read a book or talk on the phone, which would you do and why?
I have a 3 hour time difference with my BFF, so if it isn't too late her time, then talk on the phone. Otherwise, I would read a book:)

Ok, done. Now onto the blogs that I would like to pass this lovely award onto....
Katie @ love is everywhere
Brittany @ My abc soup
Erin & Eschelle @ The little fat girl that could
the mama @ getrealmama
donna @ Write now Write later
Sunny @ partly sunny chance of rain
Branson @ Reflection of Something

I check out these blogs daily. They just make my coffee taste that much better:) They are all amazing writers & I aspire to have a blog as beautiful & well written as each of their's.

Okay. Off to bed!! Peace out:)

the women. the strength. the confidence

I had no idea what "blogland" looked like.  Or what "bloggers" really did there. I was so curious, for so long. I have been a reader of Rosie O'donnell's blog for at least 6 years. I was humbled by how open  she was in her blogs. She told it how it was, rough around the edges. She also featured alot of "crafty"stuff, which I am a huge sucker for. For 5 years it was just me & Ro doing the bloggy dance together. Then enter Ms Kelle Hampton...I do credit her for sucking me into this blog world. Her blogs, her pictures, every. single. one. of her posts inspire me. If you have not read her blog, u should...u really really should!! One night while reading her blog I noticed a next blog  button at the top of her page. I hit it. I was hooked....Since then i have found so many more blogs that just blow me away...
                          
FRECKLES & FUDGE
Ooo, this chick knocks my socks. The very first blog post of her's I read, she was rushing home from somewhere & wanting to yank her tampon out. The whole post was pretty much her telling off this tampon. Lol. I couldn't find the follow button fast enough. I am not giving her post justice, so i hope you read it for yourself, because it is awesome!  Plus, this girl makes some pretty amazing baking, then tormants us with this amazing pictures of it. Yum, seriously.
                                                                
WRITE NOW WRITE LATER
I am kinda funny when it come to following blogs. I like so, so, so many blogs, but there is nothing i love more then some bloggy love at first sight. This is how I felt when I stumbled onto Donna's blog, and if it doesn't happen to you then i will be completely surprised. this woman rocks it. she is open, honest, says it how it is. i look forward to her posts everyday. So thank u Donna for making my cup of joe that  much more enjoyable!

GETREALMOMMY
If you haven't had a chance to pop over there you should. This chickee is preggers with baby boy #3 & let me tell ya, her posts are awesome! Always funny & lil bit sarcastic,which I would say is the perfect combo. She was one of the first commenter's on my blog & every time she comments she has a way of making my day!!

FOR THE LOVE OF BLOGS 

 This site saved this blogger. I was just about to give up until I joined FTLOB. It's an amazing site & perfect for any new bloggers like me:) 

I could keep going & going. Everyday I amazed at the community that I have found here in blogland. The woman, the strength, the confidence. I have never been so inspired to live my life to fullest. My blog has given me a space to write the conversations that i have in my head, and to read others conversations. I don't feel alone anymore. Or crazy. So, for that, thank u blogland. I owe ya. Huge.

fun things, fun moments, fun times

I feeling like screaming. The happy kind, of course. It's 2011, fuck YAY!!! I have wanted 2010 to be over pretty much the minute it started. It's not so much that it was a bad year but more that it was a hard year. The whole year exhausted me. Last night I went to bed before 10. On New Years Eve. Lame, so lame, I know... but I was totally okay with it. So was hubby. He totally got it. Exhausted. But now that it is the New Year & I have 12 blank months sitting in front of me, just waiting to be filled up, I feel like doing the happy dance! Okay, dramatic much I know, but I'm just hella happy that I can safely tuck twenty ten behind me. Just sayin...

 we celebrated  new years eve bowling!!

 I have actually had many happy moments this past year, let's focus on those shall we...

 My boys. They have been my light this year. They have kept me laughing when I didn't even think I remembered how. Being home with them has been such a reward that I didn't ever expect. They keep me running most of the time, & sometimes I complain & most of the time they make me feel a lil crazy. But dude, I could not imagine love any greater then what I feel for those 2 lil monkeys. Love. Big time.

After being married to D for almost 3 years, I have honestly, never loved him more. We can fight sometimes, & it was many more times then it should have been this year & I regret that. Big time. I was just so self absorbed. Spending alot of time dealing with "my shit". I'm lucky. My man loves me. He proved it this year.  I look forward to spending this whole year proving to him how much I love him. (ok so, I looked for a pic of D& I  together & could not find one. Like, WTH...tomorrow I am so taking a dozen pics of us together. So bad.)

I feel like, for as long as I can remember, I have always had a very blurry idea of who I am. I was never really certain of what I liked, or if I liked it because everyone else did. That's changing. I see myself more clearly then ever. The best part is, I'm not near as terrible as I feared I would be. I will not be defined anymore. I am who I am. If ya don't like it, then fuck ya:)

I have no real resolutions as such this year. Way to much pressure. But I do have tons of hopes... I feel like last year aged me. I got so much grey hair(boo), I cried way way to much, & I'm just done with that. This new year..this is MY year. You know why??  because I'm saying it is! Looking ahead at the new year, is not the same for me as it was when I was young. I somehow thought that my resolutions would just fall into my lap. I get it now. That I have to do the work to get the damn results. So, that is what I am going to. I'm going to work for what I want, damnit! And I'm going to get it!! I want many things (to many to list in one post!lol) but I do hope for some success with my blog. I have come to love it & I am going to commit myself to it so much more this year. Success doesn't have to be a high number of followers, or thousands of hits(although I would  pee my pants if that ever happend. Seriously.),but I'm just looking for a group of people who get me. Even on just some small level. That is another one of my hopes this year, to just surround myself with people that get me & inspire me. I think that would be amazing.... I'm feeling so pumped up right now, like I could  kickbox my way into the New Year.

One that note, I hope you all are as excited as I am about the new year!! I want you all to have fun things, fun moments, fun times planed. I know I plan on living the next year, for the first time, choosing faith. I fear you no more future. Come to think of it, this year my heart has no room for you at all fear. No fucking room. Happy New Year beautiful bloggers:)!!