Christmas. Come & Gone. I loved every moment. I just tried to breathe it all in, ya know. My boys. They amaze the hell out of me. So sensitive & caring. Understood the giving & receiving will beyond their little years. I just love their energy. I feel like I finally "did something" by creating them & putting them out in the world. They are beautiful people, those boys, & I am just so
thankful to be a part of their lives. I just love them. This deep crazy kinda love that makes me wanna...get up & just hug & hug & hug them. You know what I'm talking about, right?! It's a very intense love. A Mother's love. We love these littles from the moment we find out that we have another heart beating inside of us. It's true, it's intense... but sometimes, like on Christmas mornings, it is the lightest love. Watching them be
excited. Be right there in the moment with them. Shit, I even felt that little kid excitement again, when I opened all the little wrapped gifts in my stocking. Yes, Christmas was wonderful!!
I still have hubby home for anther two days. Now that Christmas is officially ova I am hoping he will loosen up a little. I told him the other night that I thought he needed to get drunk. He told me that I was completely right. When could he go?? In the new year, I told him. Lol! I have
big huge plans for myself this new year. I am not putting huge expectations on myself but I'm hella motivated. 2010 was
not a great year for me, & I want alot more out of 2011. I also am going to commit myself more to this blog. I still have so much to figure out. But I really want to do this, so I am going really commit!Woot woot!! My dayhome is starting in January, & we are pretty much all ready to go. I'm excited for this adventure... honestly I'm excited for all the adventures the next year have in store for us. I love this feeling. 12 whole months completely open days, just waiting to be filled. Oh, & they will. Good things this new year, please!?! On that note, I am going to check my lotto max numbers!!! I hope anyone who is reading this, if there is anyone(lol!), I hope you had a wonderful, peaceful, happy Christmas!! Peace & love...
Christmas. Come & Gone. I loved every moment. I just tried to breathe it all in, ya know. My boys. They amaze the hell out of me. So sensitive & caring. Understood the giving & receiving will beyond their little years. I just love their energy. I feel like I finally "did something" by creating them & putting them out in the world. They are beautiful people, those boys, & I am just so thankful to be a part of their lives. I just love them. This deep crazy kinda love that makes me wanna...get up & just hug & hug & hug them. You know what I'm talking about, right?! It's a very intense love. A Mother's love. We love these littles from the moment we find out that we have another heart beating inside of us. It's true, it's intense... but sometimes, like on Christmas mornings, it is the lightest love. Watching them be excited. Be right there in the moment with them. Shit, I even felt that little kid excitement again, when I opened all the little wrapped gifts in my stocking. Yes, Christmas was wonderful!!
2 comments:
I wish I could say my boys were as delightful with the giving and receiving. My 5 year old had a difficult time disguising his dissapointment at gifts he didn't like, and he was just rushing, rushing to the next gift. I was so bummed! We are going to have to practice before the next holiday!
Aww lil stinkers!!lol! We had the rushing too & I so wanted them to slow down...but everyone said they were "just boys" "let them do their thing" aw well, next year:)!! Happy Holidays!
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