When I was young & single I use to go out with my girlfriends every Thursday night. We would go for drinks & munchies & some pretty major girl talk first, then back to one of our places to watch our "Thursday night shows". I loved me my Thursday nights & I miss them. Especially this particular Thursday because I have something I need to talk about. I need advice, understanding...something, I don't know. I'm totally confused with myself. So lovely blog friends, tonight I am putting you to work, because we are going for drinks & munchies & some GIRL TALK. Thankya:)
First things first....Cranberry martini's all around, please
And munchies, can't forget the munchies.
Okay, we good?? Perfect. Let's chat. This is my issue...I have this "friend" well, she's kinda friend. I first meet her when we moved her, almost 6 years ago. She is my sister n law's bff. She is, honestly, one of the nicest people. She has helped me alot since I have moved her with thrifting me things & inviting to all of her girlfriend events, & our kids really enjoy playing with each other. She has done NOTHING to me, ever, except be extremely nice to me. My problem, I can't seem to stand to be in the same room as her. I have no idea why. There have been other people, sure, who I also couldn't stand to be in the same room with, but I had my reasons. Some serious reasons. But this girl... I have no reasons. When I mentioned it to D, he thought maybe I was jealous of her. Maybe. I mean she does have alot to be jealous about...brand new beautiful home, perfect head of blonde hair, a hubby who adores her...this chick goes on 5 vacations a year. Hell ya, she has alot for me to jealous about. But so do alot of my other girlfriends. They have all those things & more & I never feel like running out of the house when I see their number come up on my phone. It's seriously really bothering me. I have always considered myself a pretty open minded person, & these feelings I have been having about her, are making me feel like an extremely shallow person. Ugh. On top of it, I'm feeling tired about keeping up this "act" that I enjoy being around her. I have even considered delating her from fb, because he status updates annoy me. Wow, could I sound any more terrible? Am I just becoming a bitter ole lady? I honestly hate feeling this way towards her...I have even found myself wishing that she would just do something, that would justify my feelings.
So tell me, am I just plain terrible? Do I continue forcing myself to hang out with her, or should I just let it go?? So confusing. I think I need a shot:)
Thanks friends. Let's do this again soon:)xo