fun things, fun moments, fun times

I feeling like screaming. The happy kind, of course. It's 2011, fuck YAY!!! I have wanted 2010 to be over pretty much the minute it started. It's not so much that it was a bad year but more that it was a hard year. The whole year exhausted me. Last night I went to bed before 10. On New Years Eve. Lame, so lame, I know... but I was totally okay with it. So was hubby. He totally got it. Exhausted. But now that it is the New Year & I have 12 blank months sitting in front of me, just waiting to be filled up, I feel like doing the happy dance! Okay, dramatic much I know, but I'm just hella happy that I can safely tuck twenty ten behind me. Just sayin...

 we celebrated  new years eve bowling!!

 I have actually had many happy moments this past year, let's focus on those shall we...

 My boys. They have been my light this year. They have kept me laughing when I didn't even think I remembered how. Being home with them has been such a reward that I didn't ever expect. They keep me running most of the time, & sometimes I complain & most of the time they make me feel a lil crazy. But dude, I could not imagine love any greater then what I feel for those 2 lil monkeys. Love. Big time.

After being married to D for almost 3 years, I have honestly, never loved him more. We can fight sometimes, & it was many more times then it should have been this year & I regret that. Big time. I was just so self absorbed. Spending alot of time dealing with "my shit". I'm lucky. My man loves me. He proved it this year.  I look forward to spending this whole year proving to him how much I love him. (ok so, I looked for a pic of D& I  together & could not find one. Like, WTH...tomorrow I am so taking a dozen pics of us together. So bad.)

I feel like, for as long as I can remember, I have always had a very blurry idea of who I am. I was never really certain of what I liked, or if I liked it because everyone else did. That's changing. I see myself more clearly then ever. The best part is, I'm not near as terrible as I feared I would be. I will not be defined anymore. I am who I am. If ya don't like it, then fuck ya:)

I have no real resolutions as such this year. Way to much pressure. But I do have tons of hopes... I feel like last year aged me. I got so much grey hair(boo), I cried way way to much, & I'm just done with that. This new year..this is MY year. You know why??  because I'm saying it is! Looking ahead at the new year, is not the same for me as it was when I was young. I somehow thought that my resolutions would just fall into my lap. I get it now. That I have to do the work to get the damn results. So, that is what I am going to. I'm going to work for what I want, damnit! And I'm going to get it!! I want many things (to many to list in one post!lol) but I do hope for some success with my blog. I have come to love it & I am going to commit myself to it so much more this year. Success doesn't have to be a high number of followers, or thousands of hits(although I would  pee my pants if that ever happend. Seriously.),but I'm just looking for a group of people who get me. Even on just some small level. That is another one of my hopes this year, to just surround myself with people that get me & inspire me. I think that would be amazing.... I'm feeling so pumped up right now, like I could  kickbox my way into the New Year.

One that note, I hope you all are as excited as I am about the new year!! I want you all to have fun things, fun moments, fun times planed. I know I plan on living the next year, for the first time, choosing faith. I fear you no more future. Come to think of it, this year my heart has no room for you at all fear. No fucking room. Happy New Year beautiful bloggers:)!!